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Have you ever felt like you have no clue where your life is headed? Like you are not sure if you took the right path and you sort of regret it?
I feel like that right now. I am so confused about my life. I sorta wish I could go back to my childhood and start over. I would have done things so differently. I would have stopped pretending to be sick to stay home in 3rd grade. I would have actually talked to the classmates who knew my name but I didn't know theirs. I would have participated in choir for all three years instead of just one. I would have told my teacher "YES!" when he asked me to participate in the speech contest instead of shaking my head and hiding. I would have grown a backbone and stood up for myself when I was being lied to and stabbed in the back. I would have held my head high when I was being teased instead of hiding during lunch. I would have stayed in school instead of escaping to the comfort of homeschool. I would have told my best guy friend how much I appreciated his friendship and when he would comfort me by telling jokes and playing hang man with me instead of ignoring him because people were laughing at me because I was his friend. I also would have said a better goodbye on the night we got back from Disneyland because I didn't know it would be the last time I would see him.
These things are all in the past.
I just hope I didn't screw up my future.